NYC: Veil of Shadows

FROM: Siobhan Knight <moc.cbncyn|thgink.s#moc.cbncyn|thgink.s>
TO: Jenna Donovan<ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
SUBJECT: RE: I Feel Terrible

Smart ass.

You remembered this kind of stuff before our parents got us iPhones and smartphones. You were the Queen of birthdays and special occasions as far back as middle school.

Fine, then, I'm picking up the drink tab at Purgatory.

~*~
Siobhan Knight
New York City National Ballet Company, Corps de Ballet
~*~

FROM: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
TO: Siobhan Knight <moc.cbncyn|thgink.s#moc.cbncyn|thgink.s>
SUBJECT: RE: I Feel Terrible

It's called an iPhone. It remembers things for me. Like when I have tests at Tisch, and when I can just go in and watch rehearsals there instead of doing anything. Pres and I are getting credit for being on Broadway instead of working in the class theatrical productions this semester, so 'yay' for that.

You can, I guess. If you think it'll help?

Otherwise, I do have it all under control. I've already reserved the limo and the hotel room, both which we can cancel with 24 hours notice if we need to. Though I might keep the limo to pick him and his date (if he has one) up in. I know that we won't actually be doing it on his birthday since it's a Sunday night and we'll likely have to go out to Atlantic City on Friday, and do the Purgatory thing on Saturday, but after midnight? He can drink like a fish!

- J <3

FROM: Siobhan Knight <moc.cbncyn|thgink.s#moc.cbncyn|thgink.s>
TO: Jenna Donovan<ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
SUBJECT: RE: I Feel Terrible

At least one of us remembered before the last minute! I envy how you manage to remember all this stuff and juggle so many things. I'm probably going to forget my kids' birthdays. :(

You mean Brooke's hawt boyfriend? Yeah, I knew that. :) I think it's a great idea, if he'll let us do it. Do you want me to use my unfair leverage and plant a seed in Brooke's ear?

Anything you want me to help with, just say the word and I will. And you don't you dare try to say I don't need to help and you have it all under control. I feel horrible for almost forgetting and I won't feel right if I don't help.

~*~
Siobhan Knight
New York City National Ballet Company, Corps de Ballet
~*~

FROM: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
TO: Siobhan Knight <moc.cbncyn|thgink.s#moc.cbncyn|thgink.s>
SUBJECT: RE: I Feel Terrible

I remembered! I've still got to talk to someone about something special. I don't know if we can swing it, but I'm hoping so. You know, my boss owns Purgatory, right? And there's the VIP area and all that we can never get into, so I'm going to ask if he'll lift the 'ban' on it for a night for the birthday and let me run up in there and set things up.

If not, then we can head down to Atlantic City. Rent a limo and the biggest suite they've got there and just let Pres go wild if he wants to.

- J <3

FROM: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
TO: Preston Van de Mark <ude.uynhcsit|kramednavp#ude.uynhcsit|kramednavp>
SUBJECT: Got a Secret, Can you Keep it?

That's just it. I can't afford to crack under pressure, and believe me there's enough of it to cause an earthquake around here. You know, and that's good enough for me for now. I have someone to talk to about it, and you can point out when I should be doing something else in the role.

Getting my hopes up.

They could ask the girl who played Sophie before Christy to come back. There's still time before we replace the current cast to do that.

But thanks for having my back, Pres.

Love ya,

J <3

FROM: Preston Van de Mark <ude.uynhcsit|kramednavp#ude.uynhcsit|kramednavp>
TO: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
SUBJECT: RE:Got a Secret, Can you Keep it?

Songbird, really?

You know that you can count on me. But … you're going to crack under pressure and excitement. I just know that you are.

Getting whose hopes up? Sweetie, you're in. You're IT. What do you think they're going to do? Contract it out?

Break a leg, beautiful.

** Pres **

Siobhan had a long lunch break and decided to go shopping. She was wandering the stores along Fifth Avenue when she ran into Jesse. He poured on the charm (or tried to), and tried to coax her into having dinner with him. When she got frustrated and threw his infidelity in his face, he apologized and said he'd explain everything over dinner.

Finally, fed up, Siobhan told him that she didn't forgive and wouldn't forgive him ever. That she wanted him to stop calling, stop emailing and just leave her alone because she's moved on.

Jesse grabbed her by the upper arms and shoved her hard up against the wall. He got in her face, calling her a slut and an ungrateful little bitch who needs to learn to be grateful when she's lucky enough to land a guy like him. She struggled and demanded that he let her go, and was about to magic him away from her when a kindly passerby intervened.

Shaken, she cried in the ladies' room until she could pull herself together and go back to the studio.

By late evening, there will be faint hand bruises on her upper arms.

FROM: Siobhan Knight <ude.drailluj|thginks#ude.drailluj|thginks>
TO: Quintin Bruning <ude.aibmuloc|gninurb.nitniuq#ude.aibmuloc|gninurb.nitniuq>
SUBJECT: Re:Your DM

Honestly, the only reason why I used a DM is because I just can't read people. I don't know when it's been long enough to call, or meet up, or whatever. I want it to be on your time. I'm not rushing anyone or anything.

Also in being honest, I want it to be the two of us speaking when we do end up talking. I've already been made to feel unwelcome in my own home after Tuesday, even if that wasn't the point, and I'd rather not be ganged up on if I can avoid it at all.

Take your weekend. Be the beautiful person you are, and the fancy person you want to be. I'm not going anywhere, Shiv. I don't mean that in a creepy, stalker type sense either. I'm just saying that I'll be here when you're ready.

I've got this stupid thing to go to this weekend anyway. Some way to try and promote the school or whatever. It's one of many things I found out in Vegas, and I've just been radio silent about it because I feel that there are other, more important things going on.

That's honestly why I didn't say much at all during the Vegas trip. Hell, I don't really say much about my life as it is.

Just as a warning, I quit seeing Jenna's mom. Or anyone for that matter. I just tell you as I believe that Jenna will figure it out eventually. A warning, I guess, for whatever it's worth.

See you when I see you.

Q.

FROM: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
TO: Siobhan Knight <ude.drailliuj|thginks#ude.drailliuj|thginks>
SUBJECT: Re: Wardrobe Emergency…. STAT!

You know, if mother found out and it came down to it… I'd stop hanging around Quin, just to ensure that he's getting the best medical care he can be.

No, it's not taint, but all I get from you is happy giddiness and I don't want to get that 'contagion' as you put it, when I'm feeling down. Not that I am. What I'm doing is taking time to process things before I head out for my movie night.

I think that's a good idea. But maybe we should wait to bring it up until after Quin gets home? To see what happens? I don't want it to be completely uncomfortable for him or whatever. You know? But it would be fun.

Love ya,
J <3

FROM: Siobhan Knight <ude.drailliuj|thginks#ude.drailliuj|thginks>
TO: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
SUBJECT: Wardrobe Emergency…. STAT!

I guess it would be and I wouldn't want Quin to have to find a new doc. Of course she's good at what she does. That's why she has a waiting list of patients and comes highly recommended.

Gawd, Jen, it's not taint. It's friends talking and being friends. Feelings aren't contagious. (Feelings aren't contagious for me ;) ) I can be happy with Harper and still listen to you and feel for you, okay? Just because I'm with Harper doesn't mean that I don't remember how not being with Harper feels.

Oh, I wanted to run an idea by you: inviting Quin and Chance to the Hamptons with us, maybe? We've totally taken friends before and this wouldn't be any different. I don't know that they'd go, or be able to go, either of them, but we could invite. Even if they only came up for a long weekend or something, it could be fun.

Love ya,
Shiv

FROM: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
TO: Siobhan Knight <ude.drailliuj|thginks#ude.drailliuj|thginks>
SUBJECT: Re: Wardrobe Emergency…. STAT!

I haven't told her, no. I mean, it would be awkward for her patient to be hanging around her family, I guess. She'd tell me to stop hanging around with him, or offer to find him another shrink. The thing is, he likes her. She's good at what she does.

I know it doesn't mean we can't talk. But… I also know that what you have with Harper is shiny, and new. You don't need the taint of my feelings involved in any of that.

Love ya,
J <3

FROM: Siobhan Knight <ude.drailliuj|thginks#ude.drailliuj|thginks>
TO: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
SUBJECT: Wardrobe Emergency…. STAT!

Does Karen know? That you're hanging out with Quin? I never really thought about it until now, but if you started dating Quin wouldn't that be a little uncomfortable?

Of course it won't be the same dress. I might switch it up a bit from my usual, but I don't know yet. I do have a perfectly good dress in black picked out already, so it's not a pressing issue.

Even if you did suggest it, that doesn't mean you aren't a little disappointed and hurt. You're allowed to be. You can talk to me too. I'm here to listen or let you vent or whatever. Just because I'm dating Harper doesn't mean we can't lock him out of the room with a privacy spell and girl gab anymore.

Love ya,
Shiv

FROM: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
TO: Siobhan Knight <ude.drailliuj|thginks#ude.drailliuj|thginks>
SUBJECT: Re: Wardrobe Emergency…. STAT!

Oh, yeah. I can see that happening. 'Hey, mother? Can you give Quin and I therapy?' She'd blow a gasket. Hell, I'm just glad I'm over 18 and I don't need to get her permission to go on birth control.

It does. Chance only wants a fling, and he knows that while I'm okay with dating I'm not a fling girl. He's so not going to put the moves on me at the Ball. He'll do what he always does; treat it like a friendly outing, flirt a little bit, and be a perfect gentleman.

As long as you don't pick the same dress I do? I saw the one I want in the shop window yesterday, but I didn't have time to run in and try it on. It's still fairly decent, just a lot more sexy than the original dress.

I promise I wont let you buy a salmon dress.

I don't really have a choice whether I am or not. I'm the one that mentioned we should date. It wouldn't be fair of me to not be okay with it when I've gone out with Chance a few times. As friends, mostly, but still. It would be hypocritical of me to say 'yeah, Chance and I are going out places as friends, but you should leave your friend behind'.

Love ya,
J <3

FROM: Siobhan Knight <ude.drailliuj|thginks#ude.drailliuj|thginks>
TO: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
SUBJECT: Wardrobe Emergency…. STAT!

I think … yeah, I did suggest you go to therapy with Quin. *laughs* That would be amusing.

Does that go both ways? The whole being fair to both guys? What if Chance puts the moves on you at the Ball? That is kind of the sort of perfect environment. Pretty clothes, romantic type mood. Like Prom for adults.

Would it be weird for you if I ended up in something red? You know, I won't go specifically looking for red because it's totes your signature color and I don't like to step on your toes. I told Mom I was considering shopping for a new dress, and she told me "You look good in red. You don't wear it very often. I bet that would really wow Harper."

I look good in gold and black too, though, just don't let me end up buying or even trying on anything in salmon? You know I make that mistake once a year because I see a gorgeous dress and it's really just an exercise in torture.

You okay with that? The whole friend in Vegas thing? (Yeah, he told me. I was giving him a chance to tell you before I brought it up, so I'm glad he did.)

Love ya,
Shiv

FROM: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
TO: Siobhan Knight <ude.drailliuj|thginks#ude.drailliuj|thginks>
SUBJECT: Re: Wardrobe Emergency…. STAT!

It's okay. I was at work last night anyhow and wouldn't have been able to reply until I got home.

I know how Quin is. It's one of the things I like about him. He totally doesn't jump into anything until he's got the full details and whatever.

I like him too, and don't get me wrong I would love a relationship. But right now, I like two guys. It wouldn't be fair for me to go into a relationship with Quin and always have a 'what if' hanging over my head. It wouldn't be fair for him for me to do that, you know?

Did you just suggest that I go to therapy with Quin?

Anyway, he's in Vegas now with his friend, so the point is likely moot. I guess I'll see when he gets back.

We are. It'll have to be before work though.

Love ya,
J <3

FROM: Siobhan Knight <ude.drailliuj|thginks#ude.drailliuj|thginks>
TO: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
SUBJECT: Wardrobe Emergency…. STAT!

Sorry, wasn't ignoring your email, but Harper stopped by last night and the night sort of got away from us.

Yeah, Quin and I talked at lunch. He's a very deep, analytical person who doesn't like to talk or show his feelings much, you've picked on that, right?

He likes you. But you know that. You two have a lot in common in the whole haven't been in a relationship thing. I think he was a little thrown by your desire to not jump into a relationship, and he respects you for being honest. He's just very … singular minded.

Maybe when he comes back you two should talk more. Maybe with an impartial third party.

We're still on for shopping tomorrow?

Love ya,
Shiv

FROM: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
TO: Siobhan Knight <ude.drailliuj|thginks#ude.drailliuj|thginks>
SUBJECT: Re: Wardrobe Emergency…. STAT!

Me too. I get that he doesn't want anything serious. I don't know what I want right now. I don't want a fling, but dating and hanging out? I can do that easily enough. So long as I don't have to worry about him wanting a fling, which he doesn't.

Quin… well… I don't know. I thought we were on the same page. I told him I kissed Chance, and that I wanted to date because I wasn't ready for a relationship, and well he's been a lot more quiet since. Did he say anything when you were at lunch yesterday?

Love ya,
J <3

FROM: Siobhan Knight <ude.drailliuj|thginks#ude.drailliuj|thginks>
TO: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
SUBJECT: Wardrobe Emergency…. STAT!

I respect him for being honest. >.> I really need to stop saying nice things about him. It's going to start to sound like I might actually approve of him. I have a reputation to maintain.

Why so? How do you think you screwed up with Quin?

Jen, I'm on the pill. There will be condoms. How much more protection do you think we need? Assuming that it's even that sort of night. It could just be an opportunity to be alone and spend time together without interruption.

Love ya,
Shiv

FROM: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
TO: Siobhan Knight <ude.drailliuj|thginks#ude.drailliuj|thginks>
SUBJECT: Re: Wardrobe Emergency…. STAT!

Well there's that too, but it is also a hassle. I mean, I really wouldn't want to be the guy who had to indoctrinate someone into the world of sex. Especially someone like me. I respect that he's upfront about what he wants, you know? I mean, he could've just been flirty and had his way with me, but he was honest and said he doesn't want anything long term.

Along that note, I think I screwed up with Quintin. I mean, when I talked to him the other day and I said I wanted to date.

But yes! We'll get you something sexy, and a cute outfit for the next morning. And you know, extra protection just in case. I don't want to be an auntie quite yet.

Love ya,
J <3

FROM: Siobhan Knight <ude.drailliuj|thginks#ude.drailliuj|thginks>
TO: Jenna Donovan <ude.uynhcsit|navonodj#ude.uynhcsit|navonodj>
SUBJECT: Wardrobe Emergency…. STAT!

I don't think that it's so much that the virgin thing is a hassle as it is that he doesn't want to be the sleazy guy who takes it and runs. At least he's man enough to admit that he's a raging playboy.

Ugh. What is wrong with me? That's the like the third time in three days that I've defended him or tried to explain his behavior.

That cinches it then, I need super sexy lingerie.

And a better dress.

Love ya,
Shiv